On Friday April 24th heaven received an angel. Our youngest child Levi Aidyn Sims joined my father in heaven. He passed peacefully in his sleep with his brother by his side and we know this is what God wanted. We know God has a plan for everyone even though we may not know what that is.
As a mother and a father never in our wildest dreams did we think this would happen to us. The emotions we feel are so unbearable I do not even know how to put them into words. Every one of our children instantly became the loves of our lives the minute we discovered we were pregnant with them. I want to believe this is all a bad dream. I want to believe that I will wake up and this horrible nightmare will be over. No parent should have to have their whole world shattered into a million pieces. What we wouldn’t give to hold him in our arms for a little longer. What we wouldn’t give to see him smile at his older brother or his dad while they were all playing and giggling on the floor.
The first thing I said when I laid my eyes on him when he entered this world is that he is perfect. He had a perfect little billy goat cry.
Our journey to get to delivery was so rough. I struggled and I struggled hard. Levi from the very beginning showed us he was a fighter. We were thrown one curve ball after another with him. He dodged them. They told us he was growth restricted and he was failing to thrive and that he had restricted cord flow. Every appointment we made it to he was making small gains and passing his test. That all meant to me one less day in the NICU and one more day at home. I was told so many times that we would be lucky if we made it to 30weeks, then to 32weeks then to 33 and so on. They also told us that do to his birth weight he probably wouldn’t get to come home with us. He held on didn’t get worse we made it 36weeks. I had a rough labor and I really don’t think I breathed until I heard him scream! I think everyone sitting in the waiting room held their breath too. I would do it all a million times over to get him in my life for a little longer.
At 4lbs 4oz on February 6th Levi entered this world 4 minutes after his brother ready to prove everyone wrong. He didn’t have to stay in the NICU and like I said before he was perfect. He was like the teeniest tiniest version of his older brothers.
He was a beautiful doll. He was the best baby and so laid back. His struggle on the inside made his ride on the outside so easy. His personality was really just now starting to glimmer and I for a brief moment got to see who he was developing into and only wish with every ounce of my body we would have got to see who he would become. He was always smiling! The most adorable baby gum smile the kind that would melt your heart the very second you saw it. He will forever be heavy on our hearts and deep in our minds…
We want to say thank you to everyone that has reached out to our family but we do ask for privacy as our family try’s to grieve the loss of our beautiful baby boy.
Arrangements: Royer’s New Salem, Independence, MO 816-796-8600